This is not happening. This is just a dream. After feverishly reviewing nursing concepts and topics, my score in Kaplan question Trainer is marginally half. I thought that after going to nursing school, the feeling of inadequacy would vanquish into thin air….
Nope… I made this misguided notion because everytime I had a quiz in Nursing school, the feeling of inadequacy sets in because I would usually review in my optimum capacity, just to get an average score. And I would hope that after graduation, things won’t be this way because I already learned.
I was mistaken… Preparing for the NCLEX-RN would be similar or if not, it is in the superlative degree of comparison on the quizzes and exams I had in nursing school. I also answered Saunders Comprehensive Review for the NCLEX-RN, and I like this book on the notion that it made me feel confident and seemingly suggested that I am learning something. To clarify, I would get the grades C, D, and F on Kaplan, while on Saunders: I would get B’s and C’s.
I remember Professor Arvidson-Perkins saying: “Learning is a hard process.” I would agree with this without the very general and sugar-coated adjective: “Hard.” To make it more vivid, I would say that the learning process is a painful, treacherous, and fulfilling process. I say this because after that process, intellectual maturity beckons. For instance, during my first clinical days, I cannot even touch a patient, now, I have the basic skills intact, and kudos to the many skills to come. Back to the main point, learning is a process, and even though I would go through such pain and treachery, I will be here standing still for intellectual maturity. Hence, NCLEX-RN, bring it on and ask me the higher learning questions.
